Getting Back On Track.

Hello everyone,

Lately my blog has been all around the place, in the sense of no schedule and rarely putting up new content. Sorry to those who actually read the things that are floating around in my brain but from now on I hope that's changing, I'm slowly getting back on track with my life after having a weird few weeks..but for now I'm just going to talk about things that I need to get back on track with and go at them with full speed!

 The Blog: As for this little outlet for my brain I plan to start having some sort of structure to my uploads, I'd love to post Monday through 'til Friday but lately I really can't juggle life, work and daily blog posts. My new little goal is to post new content at least 3 times a week..if there's more then it'll be a little bonus, for now the days that I'll be posting on are Monday's, Wednesday's and Friday's. This does mean that sometimes the days may change but for the way my days off from my job happens lately these days should be the best for me. But as today is Tuesday then expect a post tomorrow, it will be the second part to my A-Z of me! If you haven't read that post then click here. 

Healthy Eating: For the past week I've mainly been living off absolute junk food, including a few too many trips to McDonald's and too many sweets but that's all at a stop now. I've got to the point that I physically avoid getting changed near a mirror because it's a tragic sight right now. Food is the key to all my emotions though..if I'm sad I'll tuck in to some ice cream, if I'm happy I'll eat anything and not even consider the calories. I have to get back to a weight where I felt comfortable with the way I looked and I also want to wear shorts to V Festival without feeling everything jiggle. Back to strict eating and the gym for me! 

Work: Having a job in retail was never the dream, espicially working in one of the hardest department in the supermarket, but at the moment it's the only option I have. I don't see myself getting a new job anytime soon mainly because the concpet of actually starting fresh somewhere else is so scary to me! I normally moan a lot while I'm working but I've realised if I don't feel ready or comfortable to change it then I should really just accept it for what it is and enjoy the most of it as I really do have the best times with some of the people who work there. 

Friends: Lately I've realised who my real friends are, I'll talk about this another day, and thankfully I've managed to keep tight of them whilst having the most fun! This isn't really a getting back on track segment but I really just need to be more thankful for them as they do keep me sane, so thanks for putting up with my weirdness guys! 

Now I've put all this on my blog I better stick to these words, it's good to be back!

 

Hello February.

Hello everyone,

January has gone so quick and I can't even remember what I done with most of it, this post was originally going to be a recap of my month but all I can remember is work, getting back into the gym, and getting old feelings back for someone. One thing I can remember very clear is starting my blog. I can't believe that I've stuck to it for this long to be perfectly honest with you but I think this time around it's different as I'm not thinking about what people would want to read, but what I want to write about and that makes a hell of a difference. I have one person to thank for that, if I had never found her blog then I wouldn't have been inspired to start this, so thank you Chloe!

That was the quickest recap ever so I'm changing this to more of a 'what I plan to do this month' type of post instead. The theme for February is always love as Valentine's always creeps up and makes everyone evaluate their love life, and that's exactly what I've been doing all morning! My love life is in a bit of a pickle lately as I'm kind of seeing where things go with someone but he's not the guy I want, I don't want to just settle for someone because he likes me and I'm bored of being lonely but I'm scared that will happen so tonight I'm biting the bullet and laying all my cards out on the table..I don't think anything will happen with him but I just have to get things of my chest as I know Ill regret what I don't say to him more. I might get rejected and be a bit embarrassed but I can deal with that. I can't deal with the 'what if' that would be playing on my mind if I kept quiet!

Now that leads me on to my biggest goal for this month. I don't want to bottle anything up. I'm the type of person who will let all my emotions build up within me as I don't want to feel like I'm burdening people with my problems, after all they're my problems why would anyone need to know. Wrong! For my own sanity I need to rely on my friends more to help me through certain situations because if they're my friends they'll be happy to help, like I'm always there when they need me. I think doing this will help with my overall happiness as I'm the worst person for over-thinking and my mind can play nasty tricks on me. 

Lastly I plan to get fully on track with healthy eating, I'm back to the gym and feel great but I need to sort my eating plan out more to help me get to the fitness level and weight I want to be. I love eating healthily just as much as I like the junk food so I think instead of having a treat day once a week I'll probably change that to every other week and have a treat item..not a day! I'm going to start doing a weekly food plan so I know what I'm eating and when so I can get prepared and I have a bad habit of over buying fruit and vegetables, especially kale, then it goes out of date and that's food and money wasted. 

Love. Happiness. Health. 

That's what I want to achieve in this month, wish me luck!